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2008 in rewind…

My year has not been extremely eventful but there are some highlights of my year in which I may point out.

I have steadily increased the amount of classes I am taking through this year. I have wanted the challenge. After this past semester, I learned I can take a challenge and succeed. I have also decided however, that I would much rather not devote most of my time to school outside of work. The fact that I know that I can do it and succeed makes me feel good about myslef.

I have had 3 roomates technically this year. (Seems to be a pattern.) Clay moved in just before the new year of 2008. Kat moved in in May? In which Clay had his accident soon thereafter, to read more about this and Clay himself visit http://kleigh.wordpress.com/

Hudson, my newest roomate moved in???, August? I think, maybe, ya it was it was before we started fall semester. My roomates have been well, what I might call an experience. Some of my readers may know what that means. Clay though I do wish our time together would not have been cut so short. Though, you do only live just a few minutes away, with your wife. Anyway, my year in some senses was less eventful than many others. So many of my friends have gotten married had children, moved out of state, all things much more exciting than my boring work and school over and over again life.

There was of course, my broken ankle which came at the same time as HURRICANE IKE. Those were not exciting. Though my first hurricane since I have been alive to hit Houston, it was not too severe, actually waiting it out. Not having electricity for an extended period of time was not fun though. Mostly for the fact that it was miserably hot and there was no AC.

I of course, joined the SM. In which, I have made many new friends and can’t imagine never having met some of these people.

Looking back at January 1,2008 where I was and today December 26, 2008 where I am now, I can not even believe I am the same person. (That last statement doesn’t even make any sense.)

I had basically decided at the end of last year that I wanted nothing to do with Christians, or whom they served. I decided that if the only way to serve God was to be involved with His followers, I would rather go to Hell, even though I knew this would not be the case. Therefore, I set out to rebel against everything I had been taught and knew about the Bible and the church. Fortunately, this did not last long. There of course were some casualties along the way, in which I am sorry for, though no apology would probably be acceptable. In retrospect, becoming the way that I had made me even worse than what I “hated”. I was fortunate to have some friends who at the time were much stronger than me who also being Christians but Christians I did not mind being around with me.

There was a point in which, I was finally utterly disturbed by my own action probably the most I had ever been, that I realized, I really cannot live the dark life that I thought I wanted to live. I knew where I needed to find the answer but was still very reluctant to do so. Until I finally decided to repent from my evil ways, cut some ties that would have kept me down and began searching for a place to grow spiritually. You all know obviously where I landed and reside until this point.

I also began a slightly regular time in the Bible. I don’t know if I will ever be able to do so every day, though I have been pretty regular for the last 6 months.  I listen to a podcast almost every day called the daily audio bible. DAB. Some days honestly, I daydream as  I listen but most days I am actually listening, as I recall times in which I actually read from the Bible myself on a daily basis I think I daydreamed much more as I read as opposed to now as I listen. I do sense God speaking to me through the scripture and attempt to allow it to change my life. (The struggle between myself and myself may be never ending.) There are many simple principles of Christianity in which I finally understand, but not the understanding of knowing in my head, but knowing like…believing, or living what I know? Maybe this makes no sense to some of you or all of you. If you need clarification you are welcome to ask me.

Needless to say, I have reached the point in which I am grateful for my past experiences good and bad and look forward to the future. There still remains much imperfection in me in which I trust that someday I can overcome, but remain skeptical in that I will never be perfect here on earth =).

PeACe

daneK

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